A soft tear fell
as we stood, and prayed.
Admired decorations meant
to brighten up your grave.
We stood, resigned,
while your husband stared
into eyes of ‘strangers’
visiting who’s not there.
Later I went
to the other side.
Noise, laughter,
Hugs, Smiles.
Ties have weakened
since you’ve passed.
Your memory, your love,
Forever will last.
Today was one of the strangest days and I know, before I even begin, that my words won’t be able to do me any justice tonight. However, I am determined to blog regularly so I’m going to power through.
I fell in love with a guy about 7 or 8 years ago and have never been able to get over him. Any guy I went out with, or started something with, or even considered kissing, was never able to “measure up” to him. Nothing ever happened between us but a lot was said. I don’t know what happened, but some strange spell of blinding faith was cast upon me and I’ve never been able to shake it off. Even though I know how ridiculous it sounds, I always thought that somewhere down the line that his life and mine would reconnect and intertwine once again. Today though, that piece of hope came crashing down.
In a complete daze I walked, on autopilot, to a friend. We watched a movie “Riding in Cars with Boys“ – something that didn’t exactly help. But there was a song in it that made me think. All I Have to do is Dream by the Everly Brothers. One line in this stood out to me: only trouble is geewhiz
i’m dreaming my life away
It’s not going to be easy but I need to stand up tall, (maybe consume a large quantity of alcohol), keep my head high and take everything step by step. I can do this.
One quote haunts me when I think about what this is going to be like.
“Trying to get over someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.”
I can do this.
Thought Autopsy 