Today was one of the strangest days and I know, before I even begin, that my words won’t be able to do me any justice tonight. However, I am determined to blog regularly so I’m going to power through.
I fell in love with a guy about 7 or 8 years ago and have never been able to get over him. Any guy I went out with, or started something with, or even considered kissing, was never able to “measure up” to him. Nothing ever happened between us but a lot was said. I don’t know what happened, but some strange spell of blinding faith was cast upon me and I’ve never been able to shake it off. Even though I know how ridiculous it sounds, I always thought that somewhere down the line that his life and mine would reconnect and intertwine once again. Today though, that piece of hope came crashing down.
In a complete daze I walked, on autopilot, to a friend. We watched a movie “Riding in Cars with Boys“ – something that didn’t exactly help. But there was a song in it that made me think. All I Have to do is Dream by the Everly Brothers. One line in this stood out to me: only trouble is geewhiz i’m dreaming my life away
It’s not going to be easy but I need to stand up tall, (maybe consume a large quantity of alcohol), keep my head high and take everything step by step. I can do this.
One quote haunts me when I think about what this is going to be like.
“Trying to get over someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.”